Declan

photo by marietta of the double crochets

Meet Declan! He's been with me since the summer of 2011!! I got the fellow in Ireland, he's a true irish charm!He's always smiling and carries three glittery clovers for an extra dose of luck!

At the summer of 2011 i used to take him everywhere with me and take pics of him! I think i'm gonna do the same this year too, i wonder if his preferences for scenery have changed over the course of 2 years.

photo by marietta of the double crochets

"Being Irish is very much a part of who I am. I take it everywhere with me"

Suddenly it's 2 years after

photo is from here:  http://flickrhivemind.net/Tags/bucketspade/Recent

I had sort of an epiphany today.... I remembered what i was doing today exactly 2 years ago. Yes, two years ago: melancholy mode ON!

So today, i woke up bright and early, went to work for 12 hours, contemplated what the hell i was doing there and if i'm cut out to do this sort of work- i think i am. On top of that, adding a tiny dose of melancholy, i wondered where my expectations and aspirations went and as a result decided to take drastic measures in order to change whatever it is i dont like. Oh, for the 50th time in 2012 that is. 

So August 27, 2012 i am working a 12 hours shift, i teach children aged 4-6 english and I spent more than i can afford on clothes, music, alcohol and having fun  and i am still looking for someone special. I, ladies and gentlemen, am a 25 year old with issues. But lets face it, so are you. 

So on the 27 of August, 2010 I was living abroad, i was just about finishing my MA dissertation and i couldnt wait for the real life to begin. I worked on my research paper all day and then proceeded to go out with a guy i hardly liked whilst sending a small birthday message to the guy i actually liked. 

The main problem in 2012 is i think the lack a source of inspiration. In each chapter of our lives there is an element that fuels us with inspiration. Anybody has seen mine?It is either a person or your will to be with a certain special someone, a combination of both or you simply just enjoy what you are doing so much. Er, wait, or you dont think too much like i do. 

I guess my point is that life goes in circles. Everyone has their problems, we just need to find a way to sort them out without causing too much damage on ourselves.there is i thin only one way to do that: being ourselves and finding our talent it's the only thing we'll have forever, and maybe true love too if we find it. 

about relationships

A great deal of your time as an unemployed youth is spent in wall observation and thinking.If you are a girl, this empty wall stare can lead to seriously complicated and panick driven thoughts. Let's face it, as human beings we ae bound to consider our relationships with other human beings.  You slowly discover that you subconsiously put people into categories: people you like more and people you like less, and people who are indifferent to you and even people you feel closely attached to but are far away. Social relationships are not hard to categorize, if something, they are easy. The scale is the degree of closeness you have to the other person and you move along with your tags. 

But with romantic relationships it is a bit harder. I have concluded after extensive research and personal ...er....disappointment (?)  that the categorization must be done according to the most obvious characteristic of the person: a musician, the bipolar, the lacking-self-confidence, the one that thinks he can get you and plays it cool but when you dont care he goes crazy, the one in a relationship, the musician in a relationship, the one who wears briefs, the anarchist, the self obsessed, the virgin, the one whos waiting for love like in the movies, the younger than you and the list goes on and on and on. The truth is that we see this characteristic but we choose to ignore it. Always always, we ignore it.To be more accurate, we choose to ignore it.

It's not like we want to get ourselves in the situation of disappointment, it's more our need to experience strong feelings. I see what it's like to be swept of your feet by romance or to be anxious to receive that call. There is a hint of masochism in love, lets face it. The kind of maschism when we are starving ourselves before the big date, the 3day wait till we get in touch, the tremendous hours of wondering why he said this and not that and the list goes on. It's never nice if someone just stops talking to you, but in the long-term it's probably for the best. 

I suppose you need to get through a lot of stones till you find your diamond.

Dimi is at work

So after a long stay in unemployment Dimi has finally got a job. Byez pyjama lifestyle. You will be greatly missed though.

What makes you motivated to get out of bed in the morning and go to work??Because mines is a 11 hour shift on christmas eve and new years eve. It's as a shop assistant. I'm not digging it.



Apologies i can not credit this ^_^

I have not forgot my promise for upcoming post, they will be uploaded in due time.

In the meantime-and as i am writing this from the shop- i will just say that i havent forgot, and i'm in the middle of a special project (well for me at least) !

There are various things going through my head, mopst of them of a bittersweet feeling. There is a sense of melancholy in everything i do these days.... I cant say i dont like it, but i will get over it.

Though, i am grateful for the job, as it means money, and money means plans, it means San Diego i'll be there sooner than i thought!!!

Whats the reason?

It's been too long i havent updated this. Work is doing my head in, but hey, it's valentines day and i only have a date with a box of chocolates. 

chibird

So, over this period of absence i've been thinking about work and romance and life in general. It's just simply  amazing how we always hope for something but then life twists everything and gives us something else. In fact, not something else, something completely different. Then there are the theories that tell you, oh life gave you that for a reason. Do you ever get the feeling that you simply cant find the reason???? Even in the long-term??

And on valentines day, we are supposed to celebrate love. Consumerism aside, every one of us who is single is thinking how nice it would be to have someone to celebrate it with: every year. How can this day cause nostalgia and depression to so many people, yet so many people actually or willingly celebrate it? I dont see the reason there either. 

On a more personal note, and with no feeling of self-pitty,  i sometimes think that maybe not all people are meant to be with their special someone. Other times, i think maybe i'm too stupid to realize that person is that special someone. But when you know and who feel that a special individual would be everything you ever wanted, but it simply cant be???What do you do then?? You simply hope... and meanwhile you listen to music (avoid Adele) 

Whats the reason?I dont know, but i think that sometimes just once in a while.....

For no other reason than fairytales makes us happy! Because, all of us, wether we like it or not, we are all romantic fools, and thats what makes us awesome! 

Justi a quickie

Let's all take a moment and just consider this. Just because it is true. 

Groups

I tried to make it for a month without blogging.I failed. I also started another blog for a conference i am currently organizing. Oh Blogger how i love thee. 

The conference went really good! This year it was in Istanbul, next year i hope it will be in Athens!!! I've been involved into an student NGO promoting exchange programmes, non formal education, and above all students helping students. I've been involved since 2007, even before i went for my exchange abroad. In the last year i felt like i had lost my interest in the association- i felt like i always met the same sort of person and i have been having the same conversation over and over again. 

But this year was different. The participants were inspiring and excited to be there, or maybe i found my lost inspiration or should i say motivation. In any case it was a nice break from my boring jobless life. 

Being in a conference made me think about two things. First how people work in groups. Second, how people work in larger groups. The main question being, who is really comfortable in his own shoes?In a multi-diverse environment who is brave enough to be him/her self?? 

chibird.tumblr.com

There are the types of people described above, to which i would like to add, the person who tries to prove himself smarter than everybody else (smart-ass if you will) and another who does something but not everything and maintains a good relationship with everybody, the inspiration. I like people like that, i think they're cool! 

Then we need to consider how people act in larger groups. In larger groups, i think people try to fit a certain motive, and thus loose originality. I find that people with the lose of originality and differentiation gain a certain degree of self-esteem and confidence. It's sad, because i think people win people over if they are original, confident and have the guts to be different. Those people are inspirational. I love them. 

chibird.tumblr.com

Lets all be different together!!! And yes, i will be all pro confidence here. 

PS. Thank you chibird, i love your stuff! 

Coming soon on Dimisays : the pyjama lifestyle, multinationality and a tiny trip to Istanbul!